I mentioned that I was deciding where to put my oldest in kindergarten. Two things happened. One, there was an academic summer program that would further prepare him for kindergarten, taught by his current teacher whom he loves and adores. I missed the deadline. No academic summer program. Second, my husband and I decided to transfer him from the school he "has" to attend to another school. You guessed it - missed that deadline as well. Now we have to wait until school starts to find out where he's going (I still turned the form in, just in case). In the midst of frustration and feelings of failure, I was reminded that the only thing I can do is pray. Pray that whatever school he goes to, he's blessed with a fantastic kindergarten teacher. God is in control, I'm not (clearly, as I missed two important deadlines).
Another thing that happened which God is using as faith to rest is I became pregnant again. What a blessing! I was not anticipating this to happen so soon, as it took a year to get pregnant again after my first miscarriage. The first thing I did after seeing the positive pregnancy test was to look up when my third trimester is. August is the start of the third trimester. God, you are really really really teaching me to rely on you. Why does it matter when the third trimester is, you ask? I learned in my first pregnancy that I faint in the third trimester. I fainted while driving to my doctor appointment & crashed my car. After that, it was a unanimous decision that I would not drive in the third trimester in future pregnancies . (Yes, I also fainted in the third trimester in my second pregnancy). School starts in August -- my oldest will be in kindergarten and my youngest will be in preschool, and I cannot drive them. {I am ever thankful for my parents who will be helping me out with taking the boys to school!} For me, pregnancy doesn't affect just me - it affects my entire family. From laying on the couch in the first trimester because of "morning" (all day) sickness {doing the bare minimum to ensure my boys are fed & safe}, to not driving in the third trimester, this momma has zero control over her life.
Faith to rest. Trusting in God, working on not beating myself up with guilt, and giving up the silly idea that I am in control. No clue where my child is going to kindergarten? Pray. Knowing that my family has to go above and beyond to help out during my pregnancy? Pray, pray, and pray some more that God sustains them through this time.
What is your faith to rest? Is God using things in your life to show you what He is going to do in order for you to practice faith to rest?
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